MOVING IN GRACE
alright beautiful people let me warn you now I’m all in my feels and I will jump in an tell you why. When I decided I was moving I didn’t really give anyone fair warning. I kinda woke up teeter tottered with the idea, made a decision, chose a date, and got the wheels turning. Not much discussion. Anyway when I finally started to tell people about my move it was a week before my one way ticket took me to my new journey. Needless to say, this DID NOT go over well with a lot of people. and my apologies I realize how massively naive I was NOW when it comes to the love that people have for me. When I came to the reality that I would not be able to kick it with everyone i became immediately downtrodden but i had an idea
Instead of attending expensive ass dinners and getting drunk into oblivion via drink dates and happy hours I chose to request 10 American Dollars via Venmo and Cashapp to help with my move and also I realized how many people wanted to do something, anything for me, I felt like giving me 10 bucks was the same as buying me a drink. YA’LL!!!! I already feel the warm tears brimming on my eyelids AGAIN the response I got from people was overwhelming. I always knew I was loved but the abundance of love I received I still don’t know how to take in. You would have thought I was in Vegas at a winning slot machine the way my phone started to chirp. YAHTZEE
The 10.00 start pouring in and the tears started to flow cause I’m a punk! Also the 15.00 25.00 100.00 and 200.00 flowed in. And when those numbers came in I sat on the floor of my empty apartment in the fetal position and ugly cried. I mean snot flowing funeral cried. I’m sure I know why the cry was so hard, long, and ugly but I can say afterwards I felt renewed. I knew how hard my tribe fucked with me and I also figured out that I must be an alright human being for people to curse me out to give me their hard earned coin. Do you know I had friends and family come for my neck because I didn’t ask them for 10.00!! Folks were real life upset. I don’t even know how to handle this right now. I’m just proud that I have given out the kind of energy that blessed me with this kind of outpouring of love.
There is no way on the planet Earth that I can thank you all individually or even in this lifetime. My entire apartment is furnished because of you all. I mean I am wanting for NOTHING I was even able to buy groceries. I do want to say THANK YOU. Thank you from the pits of my soul that is nourished by my ancestors in the diaspora. Thank you for making me stand in my truth that I AM LOVED. Thank you for making me acknowledge numerous times that I would do the same for all of you (and I would) Thank you for calling me out about being so damn secretive. You all deserve better of me an I will give you that. iPromise
